Can't get you out of my head..

You'd think all of these years later it would be over for me. I'm not sure it will ever be over for me. I don't long for you anymore. I don't wish for one more kiss or one more affectionate hug. I'm over the way things happened, and the way they ended. I'm over you. But I do miss my friend. You always knew what to say to me and I need that now more than I think I ever have before. You always reminded me that where I am is only a stopping point to where I'm going and always gave me a reason to love myself. You taught me about true love. Love for others and love for myself. You taught me about dreams. The kind that can be realized and the kind that break you. You taught me how to put the pieces back together when everything fell apart, in a round about way I guess. I'm not mad at you. I'm not mad at myself anymore either. I think that in the end, after careful analysis and consideration and don't forget the agonizing, things happened exactly the way they had to. I wish I was as strong as you to do the right thing for those around me as well, but I just can't give up. That's not fair. I don't think you gave up. I think you just understood things on a level that I didn't and realized that the good we could do for each other had been realized. That we had taught each other everything we could, except that one last lesson you got in there. And as hard as it was for me, I thank you for it. I cherish even that desperation that your disappearance brought me because it gave me a freedom. Freedom to move on and find my one true love. Don't get it wrong, you and I were a great love story. An epic love story. But not one to beat the test of time.. and life. But after the ideals that you gave me, I did find him and I might be most grateful to you for that. I just wish maybe you had stuck around to teach me how to keep him. But that's a whole separate entry. I wish I could just accidentally run into you somewhere. Even if you turned to avoid me to keep up your disappearing act, I just want to see your perfect hair and your alien fingers one more time.. for just seven more seconds.