please don't let her

When things are said they can't be unsaid. When they are known they can't be unknown. You can delete the source but the vibes are already out there. I'm glad you know. But I've started to realize how selfish it was that I told you. It didn't do any good for your life to be aware of the struggles in mine. I think on some level it was taken too seriously.. though it was a serious topic. I would never have expected you to choose. I would never have let you choose. Where you are now is exactly where you are supposed to be and the pain in my heart doesn't change that. I simply wish I had a role in the story. I just miss my best friend. I'm not saying we need to get married and run away from life. I don't even know if my feelings extend that far.. I just know that I feel like I'm grieving all over again. My best friend. I wish I could even begin to express what that really means to me, what you really mean to me. I just want to be able to watch you be the man that you've become, to see you in your glory. To hear your voice again.. to see you smile and hear you laugh. Not as MINE, just as you.