I think I was wrong

I'm not sure I will finish the other story. Or rather not in a forum that can be viewed. I've decided that the details that would be put into the story are not details I would want to share with the world. They are the last parts I have of the relationship and I would like to keep that for me. Someone told me they thought I could write a book. I think that story is the only one that would house enough emotion to actually get a reader base but at this time I'm not ready for that. Partly because of the sensitivity I still feel in regards to the situation and partly because of the light that has fallen on it as of recent. I think maybe it was more of a fictional story than I originally believed. I think that I had an idea of something beautiful and wanted to believe there was still something beautiful out there for me. Because of that I allowed myself to see things that weren't really there and feel emotions that had no justification. Sharing that is probably saying even too much. But now its time for me to resolve those feelings inside myself and move on to find a new story to write. It doesn't diminish the one at hand, only says that maybe its really not the end. I have to believe that I am an amazing person and that some day my actions and motivations will be returned. I have to believe that I can't lose conciousness to myself. I said I wouldn't do that when all of this started and I have failed myself miserably. I think in regards to entire concept I was the only one to fail me. I knew what I was doing every step of the way. I knew the choices I was making. I knew the pain and consequence it would bring and I still progressed forward. I still have hope for this situation. Hope that I won't lose the truth in the matter to the hurt that I feel now. But all in all, the story isn't for any of you. Its for me.