The basis is need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,

19 months later I like to think that when I talk to you, you still hear me.  Honestly I know that 12 months ago you decided that nothing I could say would matter.  I love you still.  I'm afraid of that.  Afraid that I will find this amazing man and fall in love and get married and that 10 years later you will finally appear and I will throw away 10 years just to answer your call.  I think often times about what would happen if I saw you again. Say I was walking through the mall and you appeared.  Would I turn and walk away? Would I try and pretend I didn't notice and see if you did? I think in those paralyzing  moments when our eyes met all I would be able to say if I love you.  If everything was stripped from me in my natural life I think I would always know that I love you.  You will always be the one.. or maybe you won't.  Thats the first time I've been able to say that.. But no matter what at this moment I love you still. When I close my eyes I love you still.